Just a little bit longer

Pizza party was great. I had 9 slices of pizza, a few mini sausage and 3 pieces of fried chicken. Starving the whole day just for this event was actually, worth it. Pizzas + drinks + chickens + sausages + games.

Students are actually playing Street Fighter, Rockband, Guitar hero, and Winning Eleven a day before the exam -__- yeap. I'm going to have my very first paper for this term.

Doll, her sister and silvy also joined the event. It started 30 minutes late actually because they were preparing things that im not sure with. It was nice to see Doll came over and after we filled up our stomach, I took her out for a walk and enjoy the wind under the dark sky filled with stars above us. We had our moments, chatted, and had fun tickling each other, and do stuff that we wanted to do together.

It is so nice that Doll finally explained to me things that she never wanted to tell me properly. At least now I understand whats going on in here head and problems that she went through. Yep, I know I'm the better person. I'm currently the best man there is for her. I hope it will last forever. Just a little bit longer and I'll be able to support her at every corner that she need now.

Just a little bit longer.

Don't know what title should I put

Yea seriously, I have no idea what title should I put for this post. =_=

Nothing much happened this week, except for the money-less season that me and my friends and darling have : completely broke. I have exactly RM10 until the next pocket money I will get from my mom which will be someday around this weekend and next week. Tomorrow there will be a Pizza Party organized by Emina Club, in conjunction with Daicon event next month. Nawnaw will be there also and I told her to be prepared for ultra weight gain coz I will force her to eat at least 20 slices of pizza :D just kidding darling, you know I won't do that to you.

Some of my friends do have love problem lately : 2 of them in which being haunted by their ex-girlfriends, another one had to take care of his ex after she caught in an accident and coma for 2 weeks, she's okay already which is a good thing.

Was supposed to stay over at darling's place but asked to stay at hostel instead ; save more money and I gonna have to stay over for a week long until hostel registration open. Saddened by the fact that I couldn't see her, and miss her terribly, excited over the fact the I will see her for the whole one week. Expect her to get a good rest while I'm around later, give her massage, help her do houseworks, keeping her company and shower much and lots of love on her.

She had things that she prefer not to tell me, and I respect her decision, I will not force you to tell me everything you got, but I do hope to be the person that you will share whatever problems you have, and difficulties, physically, mentally and spiritually. Upset because you didn't tell me, but it's not really a big problem, as long as we are happy together so what the hell :D

Miss you so much. I'm jealous to see couples walking around the campus, sharing their food and secrets while whispering in each others' ears, to see my friends smsing their loved ones, web-cam session with them, talk to them on the phone.

Wish we could do more than this.

I miss you so much :(

Sincerely,
Daniel Bryan Jangin

Cold, Warm. Cough.

It was hot in the day and raining in the night, caught a cold and hopefully its not swine flu -_-" read the news about Penang got attacked by the virus, hopefully it won't get any serious.

There goes the favorite food of non-muslim. Was thinking of having a nice a hot pot of bak kut teh but, fucking Americans came here and spread the disease.

Recently a friend of mine tagged me in a class photo. I was nice and i got myself into the nostalgic moment for a while, until I mentioned the offer which everyone knows (excluded the blog readers, sorry you don't have to know). Meh, didn't bother when it when I was told that I have been telling lies because I expected that earlier, but got a little disturbed when a good friend of mine in high school mentioned me using my girl as an excuse for going over. Yes it was, but please, don't rub it in man...

Oh wao I actually planned for Korea sinced 2005 that was a good long term planned :\ Japan some more. Anywhere else to go after this, Mexico? Finland? Gimme Mars, it's a good choice to go over maybe even migrate there, build a nice shack for shelter from meteor rain from outer space. I might need adamantine steel or hire either Chuck Norris or Batman to cover me up from any danger. Either one of them would round house a meteor back to mother Earth or fire rockets from Bat Mobile.

Girl, I never said I want to go Korea :\

rage in 3....2....1 ...

Yours Sincerely.
Daniel Jangin


ps : it's quite sad to get this from a, eventually someone who I actually trusted more than my friends in college.

Whenever

I'll always be there
In the times you need.

When your heart shatters
I'll pick up the pieces.

When tears stream down from your eyes
I'll wipe it of with my kisses.

When you need a company
I'll be your teddy.

When your soul is empty
I'll make the love plenty.

Whenever you need me
Just give me a call

When the day is dull for you
I'll create a rainbow just for you

When everyone ignores you
I'll listen to you

When you asked why I love you
I couldn't respond at all

Now I know why.

Because your kindness reached my heart.
Because you trust me with all your heart.
I saw the inner beauty in you,
With my heart.

My eyes couldn't see what's invisible within you.
Because immediately my heart told me,
That I'm in love with you.

Yours Truly,
Daniel Bryan Jangin.

3rd of May 2008

I just came back from Subang, my girl's place.

We actually gonna about what's going on between us, the night before that, she told me she wants to tell me about it when I come over to her place. I started to get worried and and had a bad feeling about what going on later.

Came to Subang straight reached her college because there were a photoshoot going on, but not for long. It was pretty fun for the girls and a little bit boring for the guys like me and Nik, maybe he was having fun? I don't know. Pris belanja us a meal over at Sakae Sushi, Subang Parade branch and there are huge changes in terms of service. No more okonomiyaki which was a favorite for me and Diana. I knew Pris was going to pay, I didn't eat as much as usual I do : eating more than RM60 of sushi.

So after that we took a walk little bit and went home. The night was normal, but we did talked a little bit about me being over possessive towards her and I kinda agreed about it.. I knew it was a mistake. So we slept together after that.

I woke up earlier than usual, and she was right next to me sleeping peacefully. I watched her and tuck her into the blanket and kissed her cheek. I think she knew I did that because she was smiling. When she woke up, we talked about what she was going to tell me last night.. and I realize that I was THIS close to lose her. It was like an arrow pierced my skin and went through in my heart. It was more like a disappointment towards myself.. suddenly it just came to me that I made the biggest mistake of all which is being over possessive.

She needed more room for herself to breath and I didn't give her the chance to do that.. I almost blew it off.. everything..now I got the chance to redeem myself back ; a chance for me to shower her with more love, much more that she could actually felt, even more, but doesn't mean that I have to keep an eye on her.. I was an idiot for being worried everytime she went out and talk with her friends and colleagues, especially the guys around her. I trusted her, but it wasn't enough. I shouldn't be jealous, they are the ones that should jealous of me, because I got to be with her and carry her around. If the guys would lay their hands on her, I know she will just kill them :D herself, litteraly.

I'm just glad that she appreciates me more than anything else. I knew this all along. I should put more trust on her. We're close to our destination... just a few miles ahead. The distance between us is just to make both of us stronger, it's another test of loyalty and faith. After we reached our destination, things will just be great!

"You're always be a part of me, I'm part of you indefinitely"

And oh we did our own photoshoot session again, but there's no way I'm gonna show you bastards her pictures >:D