x_x tiring week

SERIOUSLY.

Nothing new this week except for the hectic-ness of assignments and massive gaming in the room! xD

I quit playing Counter-Strike 1.6 for the time being because it's a waste of my time really; hostel player sucked bad, no good teams around = gg. I've been playing World of Warcraft : Wrath of the Lich King lately. So many things I gotta do in the game. First two days of my leveling period where I had achieved level 80, I actually skipped classes just to level up my Sasha =D Gaming equals to attendance percentage drop for me lol. Been playing alot. Up until right now, I actually skipped most of my classes and sleep late. The next 30 minutes b4 class starts I stopped playing for awhile and came back during the lunch hour. Slept about like 4 hours and I continued my quest to hunt for Hordies. Had a few good wars and wasted time waiting for them to come out and fight.

But I just don't get it sometimes; we killed them and they had the resurrect. After that they needed like 20 minutes to regroup themselves and engaged the war. It ended in about 3 minutes = we won. Regrouping for them took forever. Me and the boys were tired of waiting so we flew off somewhere else. One of them actually refused to fight my Sasha and always tried to backstab me whenever I appeared AFK and he failed all the time. Instead he got countered back and died. Amusing.

Sashashashashashashashasha-ness~~!~!~!~!~!!! <3 I love my rouge.

Last week had a photoshoot with a good friend of mine and a friend of hers at The Curve. It was a tiring trip, as usual. Who would want to take buses and trains all the way from a deserted area to the main city? I would rather drive. At least I got to enjoy my songs, a nice driver seat to rest my back and ass, and aircond instead of having myself pummeled in between 2 freaking males who hadn't showered. Trip back home would be the same x_x. The photoshoot was nice tho. I enjoy taking pictures, especially my good friend's pic. She was lovely and all. Too bad it is a one sided love.

I've been keeping myself occupied with everything I can. Let it be gaming and assignments, class, social. Maybe because I want to forget about my bitter past and the lost love. It's weird. Whenever I think about it I feel strange, maybe because I opened up my mind and accepted the reality already. I feel like being a jerk sometimes. People, especially girls are so nice to me and it was so hard to push them back. For once in my life I want to be an asshole : go out with them and do stuff the next morning I say "bye bitch". I would want to be the one that breaks people's heart. A friend of mine says that I give face so much even in games. Maybe I should try to be a cold hearted son of a bitch. There's a wicked personality inside of me sometimes. I'm tired of getting all the disappointments and heart broken. Losers always walked out from me. What the fuck...

But still, being a jerk and asshole and everything that is bad, is so not me.. ~_~

and girls, pls, im not ready for anything. dont come to me and say that im the best thing there is. so typical, like u know me so much? how long have u known me? what, 3 months? give up lar...

Yours Truly
Daniel Bryan

Just When I Thought

When I thought things would be ok.

I thought it will be better this way to leave things as it is. Slowly we forget about how it felt like to miss each other so much. Slowly that strong feeling fades within ourselves. Slowly we forgot about how it was like to love each other.

And it suddenly came back.

Teddy bear helps alot when I need comfort and hugs whenever I need.

When I thought things were fine and already settled down, I knew something would be wrong.

You were there, hurt. So far away from me and I couldn't reach you. You need shoulder to lay on, and I'm not there to wipe your tears. All I can do is to comfort you through my cellphone and with my words.

When I knew you miss me as well, I felt appreciated for a moment. I thought it would came back.

Maybe I was wrong? I don't know.

God knows what is in your head now. Just when I stopped hoping and having fun for myself flirting around and get all the fame in the class and the dates I was asked to go. Going out with them is weird when I kept thinking about you. Maybe I was doing the comparison all the time. It felt so wrong suddenly.

I needed you. You needed me.

Just remember when you're hurt and alone, there's always one person in the world that can give in to you everything in the world =)You are just like that ring ; of all the people on this planet, there's only one that shines and sparkles in my eyes.

Yours Truly
Daniel Bryan

Self Motivation Quotes?

When you're going through a difficult time
When you wonder if you're making the right choices
When you wonder how you'll make it through
When you wonder if anyone really cares..

Take everything a step at a time
Do what works best for you
Stay focused on what you want in life
Move ahead in the direction of happiness
Keep believing in yourself.

You're strong and motivated individual
You're a loving and warm person who loves life
You will rise to meet challenges that face you.
You're capable of dealing with any complications in life.


deevon

Happy Birthday

God bless me for not getting into any troubles on my birthday. Yes, you guys waited to bash me up on this day, but I know you guys are being understanding; myself having this emotional case, and so lost in love. I appreciate the understanding guys. Thank you Faiq for being the only one that listens to me and I'm so sorry to actually put up your situation the same as the person that I hate so much. Thank you Syam for supporting me from far. Your words of wisdom and the effort to keep me off from thinking about it does helped. Thx to my family for being supportive as well.

It was rather a nice birthday hangout with Diana and her cousins. Lunch at Pasta Zanmai and then after that Ice Age 3. I didn't actually spent a single cent on them or for myself. They were being so nice to pay up everything for me. Oh, Diana even gave me a bright pink teddy bear, and I named her Tinky =3 Why Tinky? Because it is a teddy bear and she's pink color. After that we took a short rest to her house then moved out again and this time to FTZ Asia. We played Left 4 Dead and it wasn't so nice. He was right about the network then, and I thought FTZ Asia had 100mbps lan connectivity.

We went off and Jin Hoe had to sent me back to KTM Subang Station. I was lucky to get onto the last train on and off. KTM Subang > KL Sentral > Putrajaya Sentral. Law Faiq and Natsu was there at Putra to fetch me back home after a light supper. I can't believe myself I actually carried Tinky in my arms. I just couldn't see how bad it is like to have her in my bag. When I was resting and waiting for the train, I saw her eyes like so sad wanted me to take her off from the bad and wanted me to hug me around. Such a darling she is. No wonder mummy wanted to get you for us. She made the right choice then.

I was all wrong myself when I was picking up my clothes at her place. I felt so ashamed of myself to face her parents. I failed Diana as her boyfriend and there her parents were in the house. I didn't expect myself to stepped into her house and her room this soon. All this while I felt like I was gonna lose her and we'll never come back. She gave me a slap which was a good wake up call and asked if I don't want to come back ever again. Of course I want to. After all I've been hoping so much to get together again and I still do have this strong feeling of love for her and it was never returned back to me after that day, except for the care and love from her as a friend, and best buddy to me.

Maybe it is not right moment yet. Maybe we haven't really understand each other that well and this is the chance for us to get into better understanding. I appreciate her as my friend. All I hope now is for her to be happy on whatever she do and whoever she is with. She has feelings for someone else which is not me. I am very upset over it, but it is not right. I'm suppose to look forward for better things ahead of me. Maybe one day we will get back to each other again and this is just another hurdle for us to handle, an obstacle to go right through it. Possibilities are still there.

Maybe it is just me.

Tinky have been a good company for me. Hugging her while I'm asleep or having her on my laps while doing anything in front of the pc keeps me company most of the time. Whenever I feel alone or sad anytime of the day, she is there to give me a hug and comfort, listen to me and wipe of my tears.

Thank you for Tinky =] I'll keep her as my daughter, and she will come and see you whenever there is a chance to meet I promise.

Happy 22nd Birthday Daniel Bryan Jangin.

Yours Truly
Daniel Bryan Jangin