Raya! Alone!

When I woke up yesterday after lunch hour I realized that I'm alone in the room, in the hostel block to be exact, without any friends around. They went back to their respective kampung already to celebrate Hari Raya with their families. Come to think of it, this year's ramadhan is boring compare to last year, where we would stay up and do stuff like playing cards after sahur until afternoon then we would hit the beds. This year, after we ate, we straight sleep! Boring!

Nothing special about Raya this year as well. I don't know why.

Went out for dinner with small fish last night. We dined together at QThai, ate Thai food. It was scrumptious. Couldn't get a transport to ride there so we walked all the way there from MMU Cyber and we walked back while it was drizzling. Had a good time myself especially when I observed how she would talk and walk, how she ate and things we talked and do nonsense. I was surprised she didn't bring along her bottle which she usually did and brought an umbrella instead. Told her it was going to rain but she didn't believe me at first. In then end, I was right.

She would innocently do jokes and laughed and asked me to guess things I asked her, and I guessed them right. It takes a man to understand a girl and guessed them correctly right? lol

"RAWR" is something she will say if she read this. Haha..

So anyways it's going to be a troublesome to stay in hostel when the foodcourts here are closed and I will have no other options but to stocked up lots of instant noodles to survive. I don't have enough cash myself to go out and eat. Gonna save up for some other stuff. Trimester break? Won't be able to go home as well, because it's gonna be a week holiday. Parents would ask me to stay anyway. Going back to Sarawak for a week break it's not gonna worth it. What am I gonna do there if I were get the chance to go back? Practically I will stay at home on curfew and my parents would say : whats the point of going out? It's dangerous out there! Got bad people wan! Wanna kena chop by the neighbour ah?

I'm already a young adult. 22 years old. I can't believe they still actually tell me the same thing. It's so hard when you're actually growing up and still got the same treatment where going out of the house is a dangerous thing to do ever. Nonsense.

SAD LIAO SAD!

Lucky I got Tinky here to keep me company ; my pink teddy bear daughter~ <3

Yours Truly
Daniel Bryan Jangin

Meter

While chilling out in my room resting myself full day in before major rush for assignments, I stumbled upon this cool short film made local talents and guess what? Featuring Khairy Jamalduddin as the principal cast. :D



give it a tryyyy

Keeping Myself Together

Dear bloggie,

You know, it is true that sometimes, there are things that are better off to be kept secret and I don't have to know because it's gonna leave a cut on myself. I already expected this though, sooner or later I will get to know it, but I didn't expect it would be this fast. To know something that you already know it's going to be bad and in the end I led myself towards the path of needles and molten fire road, again. But it's good also, it's better to know earlier then you know it later in the middle of something when you were about to do something even bigger and important.

I was quite happy that someone finally opened up herself to me again, being to person she would tell and cry on, someone she could trust for her to tell everything, share her depressions and pain and hardships that she's facing right now. Though my words couldn't reach her heart, but at least she felt much better when a little bit of the burden were let go.

I regret that I let you go. I knew this was going to happened, but I didn't have the strength and power to convinced you. I don't have words to make you stop from doing it, for you to give up everything only to found out that it's not the right path.

I could have stopped you. If I was able to, we would share things and happy again like how we used to. I would be there for you at times you need, like how I used to do, even though sometimes I'm not around. I do know my own limits ; I'm a human as well.. I know very well that I'm not like God who could answer every single prayers that was forwarded to Him.. but at least I know whenever you felt sad and depressed, there's always a shoulder for you to lie on.. the hugs to comfort you, the magical kiss on the forehead to cleansed your soul.

Help her God Almighty. She's a lost soul, just like how I am now. Save her. Guide her towards the light, back to the right track where she belongs.

If I know how to make you found your heart for me again, I would do everything to make you happy. As a friend, I will always be around you, to love and care whenever you need.

Yours Sincerely,
Daniel Bryan