Doubted. Dissappointed.

Nothing much today. Nothing interesting. Woke up earlier today in the morning for Sunday Mass at St. Joseph Carmalite Chapel. After church we went back home instead of going for the usual breakfast right away nearby the fish market. We decided to have breakfast together with my sister and Erwan and we went to some Malay restaurant. After that, we went to e-Mart for grocery shopping.

Pina and Erwan will be going back to Kedah tomorrow together with their 4 months old son. I doubt I will see them anytime sooner. Hope things will be great ahead of them in the future :)

These are the main points for my blog today ;

I've thought so many things today, don't know why so many things suddenly ran through my mind. I didn't speak much today. Most of the time I kept quiet. Maybe because I know that, even though I talk, no one here would actually believe me or even bothers me. Whenever I talk to my parents, they would sit and stand still pretend that they didn't listen to anything, macam tiang or sort of. Even better, my dad clearly told me in front of my mom while he was driving that nobody would actually listen or believe in me again ever because according to what he said, I've lied to them so much already.

I don't bother actually. I've given up the hope that they will trust and believe to whatever I said and told them. I know myself best and they are people out there that trust me and believe on what I will tell them. I'm quite disappointed actually, my own father and my mother saying such thing. How could they doubt their own son? But never mind. There are more than 5 billion people around the globe, these are just two people.. I don't want to bother already.. they can say what ever they want as I know myself the best. Even better, it's good to save my breathe and voice to those who will listen to me and believe in me.

I wonder how will they treat me in the future.